SPM Result is out!(I am FAILING????)

Sat,26.32011
11.30pm

Dear Diary,

Phew!! Finally the result is out!
I was so freaking nervous and honestly this is the first time i was feeling really nervous over the past 17 years of my life! Seriously!
I was at school with my dad..

Yeah! My dad..
That just adds up the anxious part.
Coz i don't really want my dad to hope for something high-(aka have high expectations on me) about my SPM result..

Damn! Whatever happens..
My future sorta depends on it..
My mom once said that if don't succed in SPM results, i am so retaking the test again..
I was like.. WHAT?
I don't wanna go back there!
I don't want to relive my dull high school life..
Seriously,it's more than embarassement that i had to pay..

I don't want to live while looking at my past..
That is so not me..

Anyway.. End of the day,
I got my result..

I got 2A+(BM and ENglish) -SCORE!
One A (Science)-Never expect that!
and bunch of others..
 One thing i have been sure from the start..

i will fail my account and Add math,..
Bababom!
I  fail in both of them!
How freaking bad is that?

Well, looks like i'm taking TESL for my college/university course before i can take my dream course-Culinary Arts..
Oh..Well..
Wish me Luck...

p/s: I am so nervous!