Something Called Love? Really? Or is it?

Hey, all! Anneyong! Its me again!

I just wanna say that a lot have happen in my life these couple of week..
Did i tell you that i just got my President's list certificate from the college?

Duh! I did! hahaha... clueless me..

Anyway, it was a lot fun being there although we have to sit there and wait for the President to come..
After all it was worth it..
Why?
Well, aside from getting the certificate, i was spending time with two among most important people in my life right now..

The one i adore and the one i Love..

What did you ask?
Yeah~ it's the same guy from the last post..

U know...
the one i cry on and on when i let out my feelings for him..
Yeah.. I was so stupid... but really,, i really love him..

Speaking of him...
You know, i was so confused about how guys like him think..
Yeah.. He is not that responsive and whatnot..

I was not expecting a relationship if the time is not right but i want ur friendship..
and he did not give neither a yes o no..
so.. get the answer from someone the same gender as him..

Like people said, if u want the answer, u gotta ask the one in the same group..
So i ask my old schoolmate.. Lets just alias his name as Fred..

Well, i asked Fred and he said to tell him everything about it...
So i tell him about the time when we were close and always fighting like in the korean drama..
haha..
He laughed..

After all the babbaling for hours... he gave me an answer..

He said from a guy point of view..
He said he also felt the same way about me..
But he did not know how to express it..

Then when i have a boyfriend that time he was crushed by it and that's why he keep sending and posting sad songs on his FB.. Even his sister commented saying that he is heartbroken..

But when i broke up with him, he just like.. i dunno ignores me..
I was kinda sad... Because after i said my feelings to him, things did not stay the same again..

We weren't fighting and we were as awkward as ever..
Like a couple of strangers..
Like we just met..

I know.. Sad right?
I felt it..
Maybe he felt it too?
Or maybe not...
Hurm...

Then, Fred said that he is jealous and sulking because i couple with another guy..
And he was sorta have vengeance at me when i broke up with my ex..
As a payback for making him feel bad..
I am a nappeun yeoja tht time..

But Fred also said that...
He still like me for me.. He just dunno how to express it..
AND U KNOW HOW DELIGHTED I FEEL ?

Hahaha...  A WHOLE LOT!
I WAS HAPPY!
But then, i restrained myself not to hope too high...
Its all depends on Allah and his destiny...

After a long talk with Fred that night,,,
I woke up and my sister who was on the computer, called me..

I went at her ..

"Sis, you wanna see something?" She said.. I looked at her with droopy eyes...
"What?"
"I found something interesting.. and i think you gonna like it..." She grinned and looked back at the computer's screen..

I looked at her weirdly, What did she had that is so interesting in this time of a day?

She clicked and clicked.. Her facebook page clicked on a page..
I know that page very welll..

"Look... Look what was posted..." She scroll down the page and stopped at one post that attracted me alot..

It also gave me a slight surprise and a side order of curiosity...

The page was HIS and the post was a picture of him..

Holding up three piece of paper, one in his hand, one is under the first paper and the other one on his thigh.

He was sitting on a grass, at the place where we used to have a photoshoot...

The first paper was.. I Miss You, I.L.Y.S.M (I Love You So Much),Saranghaeyo. It was a yellow paper..

The second paper was, "Hi! I just wanna say that, I Love You! (heart sign) Thanks for everything) The paper was yellow...

The third one was, i love you so much.. But i.. afraid for Loving you..

(stunned)
I\Yeahh..
I was like that,,
Soem part of me say... hey, maybe he have someone he love or that is for someone he likes....
But part of me sorta ticks saying that might be for me?
I know.. Silly right?

A part of me want to feel happy but a part of me also restrained myself....
Aigoo...

But i know one thing!
I gotta ell Fitri about this@ and Ira!

fRIENDS!
I have something o tell u!

Anyhow, to conclude.. this week been great...
I love them all...! my family also!
Saranghae! *heartsign* ^-^

FrOM..: yOURS TRULY~