A Chef's Dary~

Menjadi seorang chef hampir sama seperti menjadi askar. 

Pergerakan mesti pantas 

 dan kemas serta berhadapan dgn pelbagai halangan sprti 

masa

,kerenah dan kehendak pelanggan,

mengimbangi rasa dlm masakan, 

kreativiti tuk "garnish" mknn,

menjaga sanitasi persekitaran

 dn sebagainya..

Disebalik semua itu, kami juga seperti orng lain. Kami juga berhibur dan bergembira setelah menempuh hari2 yg sibuk. Some 

of us might be serious n lousy in the kitchen,but outside we are even cooler person thn those people who works at the accounts department (no offense here!). We might be shouting n cursing at each other in the kitchen,but outside we are closer than ever. Sure the chefs were seen as people who curses alot (even when we are joking with one another) or always membuli dgn menyorokkan beg atau membekukan jam,but by the time it's over,those are the memories we are going to miss the most. The laughter, tears,sweat, blood,cuts from the knives, all tht will becomes the sweetest and memorable episodes of our life. Sure a few fights,ache n dealing with people that were pain in the ass,but its good coz we will know how to deal it better with certain situation in the future. With the chefs that willing to share ideas, recipes n tips with us,each one of it are added to our book so it'll be used by us anytime we need it.

Saya tau sy bukan bakal chef yg terbaik untuk menghakimi krn sy sendiri blum ad pengalaman yg byk dlm industri ini, but this is about what i saw n experience first hand and i know i pick the right industri to be. I just have to work harder,brush up my skills n be a faster worker n think creative n outside the box. If this is my destiny, I am up for it. I will give all i got in this industry n make my family n myself proud. I know my skills were lacking in the kitchen by a lot but i will try to fix it and improve it in the future..

Wow, mcm x percaya je Hana dh tulis karangan pendek, Apapun, ini hanya pendapat hana dan x bias pada sapa2. just luahan seorng trainee praktikal. Chefs lebih tau ap yg btol krn anda lebih berpengalaman.. Pada kwn2ku yg bakal menjadi chef-chef suatu hari nanti InsyaAllah, Thanks n Goodluck. Kita xkn mengalah.. Aja-aja Hwaiting! Salam Kimchi dr sy Hannah Farhana..hihi.. :)

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Malam linangan Air mata..~ (Luahan Hati)

Rintik2 air hujan di jendelaku. Aku melihat rintik2 itu jatuh menjadi lopak kecil di atas tanah. Aku mendongak melhat awan yang satu lagi sedang menangis dan hatiku menjadi sebak, merindui yang di sayangi. Satu masih kabur2 mengenai perasaanku terhadapnya dan perasaanya terhadapku, dan satu lagi yang x mungkin kembali lagi~ 

Tersentuh jiwa kewanitaanku saat air mata menitis mengenangkannya. Baruku sedar yang aku juga seorang wanita yg punya perasaan. ku hulur tanganku seolah menghantar syg n rinduku pada mereka, walau tanganku di basahi hujan,walau air mataku mengalir bak sungai, x henti meluahkan lara di hati,namun demi mereka, aku sanggup. kasih sygku xde belah bahaginye pd mereka. 

Tapiku sedar, semunya terserah pada Ilahi. Aku hanya mampu menadah tangan dan bersujud kepadaNYA agar memberiku ketabahan untuk hidup sebagai khalifahnya di muka bumi ini.. Ku sedar realiti bukan seperti ap yg ku tulis d dalam novel2ku, itu hanya impian dan secebis realiti dan impian seorang perempuan dan ap yg dilihat di sekelilingye.  

*Mak, ana doakan mak tenang di sana, bahagia di sisiNya setelah menderita selama 14 tahun. Segala yg di tunjuk ajar oleh mak akan ana lakukan dgn sebaiknya. Amanah mak akan ana pegang sampi bila2. Ana akn jaga abah and Pipah sebaiknya smpi sume sihat2 belaka... 

Ana ingt lagi kata2 terakhir yg buat ana linang air mata ble ana dgr.. "Saranghae, my daughters.." Walau sebut x set erer kitorang tetapi itulah yg dirindui oleh kami smpi ble2. Masakan, lawak jenaka, Mak kitorang berbeza dgn mak orang len, mesra, dan kami bukan sahaja ad hubungan sbgi anak beranak ttp juga kawan baik yg sentiasa ada disisi kami dan menerima kami seadanya. MoM, THERE'S NO NE LIKE YOU and NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU. U ARE OUR ETERNAL BEST FRIENDS.. From the day we first see the world until the last day you saw the world, every second of it were priceless to us. We will pray for ur safety there and we will always love you, Mom, Omma, Mama.. Saranghae, Sayang, Love you~

"Sayang, I doakan u hidup bahagia dengan keluarga dan rakan2 yg len. I paham u nk kejar cita2 sebelum cinta dan I tau u bukanlah seperti apa yang orang lain lihat.I tau kita dah x rapat macam dulu kerana I xnk u rasa sesak dan rimas dengan usikan sesapa..


I rasa pun i x lyk panggil u syg samada gurau atau sebenarnya. I nk u tau yg I x prnh lpe sekalipun apa yg pnh u bgtau kat I dan i masih simpan rahsia dan janji kita* x tau u ingat ke tak.hehe.. I pun nk u tau, i x kesah ble u change style, i cume rasa u len sket(sgt~) haritu. I am sorry lama x tegur u, bukan sebab i x mesra ttp i dpt rasa u x selesa dan i tau sume slh i sbb i bgtau u dan buat u rasa x selesa. I paham jika u ad orang yg u suke selain I, maaf jika korang ad masalah sbb I. 

Kwn atau Cinta, I masih sygkn U, lama atau baru, Stylish atau tidak, Photogenic atau tidak, :)

*Memories are sometimes fade away but moments alwats remains in out deepest heart if u only appreciate every beat and second of it..*

Cold blast through my heart

 What up diary?
 I know.. i know.. I havent been updating for awhile.. I know.. That's just because i was too damn busy about the life.. U know this college life ain't that easy u ol' coop~!

Anyway, skip that rumbling, mumbling mumbo jumbo and let's get to main topic here. So today after about 2 weeks of holiday, i went to college. I was going to help my senpai, Kush to collect the money for out T-Shirt that he ordered for our group. Why am i the one who is collecting and not my senpai himself? Well, he got..um.. abit..of..um..bowel problems... Enough said~

 So i was doing a favor for him. But that damn ass traffic jam kept me on the road for almost an half an hour. While in the restaurant. Kak sal called and said our mentor wanted all the President's list student to come to the college and get our presents.. This eventually sets the bad mood made by the traffic jam after that a bit of relief..

Any way, while waiting for the stupid traffic jam to be over, Wanie called and told me that she is already at the college. SO when i arrived , I called her and she sadi she was in the Account Department.. When i went there, i saw a bunch of people actually went in and made the place very crowded. Start of a new sem, gotta understand that~~

So after waiting about an hour, Wanie and I went out and heading to Nadia's hostel which is located on the second floor of the B block. She was just about to take a bath when we get there.We waited and we went down together..

When I am about to went down the stairs, I came across Kak Huda, who is Faiz's neighbour.

"Hi, Kak Huda.." She looked up and smile

"Hi, hana.."

"Tunggu Nadia nk gi jumpe chef.." I said to her

"Oh.. Faiz ada kat bwh. Akak bru je jumpe dia tadi.." She said that with a smile and somehow a glint in her eyes...

Chamkanman~~(Wait..)

I did not remember asking about him...? How..
How on earth?

I was weirded out by her sudden information, not that i don't like her saying that but it just makes it weird..Like why did she suddenly said that he is downstairs as soon as I saw her?
Am i reminded about him every time she saw me? Whoa~ Freaky~

But when we came down, we did not encounter Faiz at all..weird..

Then we all was on our way  to Admin's office to get the add drop subject when we come across Ayie and her sister..

"Whoa.. Ak x knl dia dowh~ Len giler muke ko~.." She said..
Maybe becoz i was wearing a, Aegyo glasses? haha..

Just after Ayie asked where is Kak sal, My phone rang and i saw Kak sal's caller ID on the screen..

"Hello.. kak sal. Kak sal dh smpi?"

"Dh.. Ana kat mana?"

"Ana tgh nk temankan Nadia gi Admin, amik borang Add Drop.. Nape?"

"Kak sal kat office n.. Cepatlah.."

"Okay.."

I excused myself and went running like a thunder to the office, knowing that she must've been waiting long for me...

I got a lot of weird looks at me as if i was wearing something awful or as if i am an alien, but i ignore it and went up to the second floor.

The minute, i step out from the door and was walking towards the office, i heard Kak sal's voice calling me..

I turned around and i saw Kak sal with her husband, her son and Faiz.

I lean my back at the wall and catch up my breath..

"Nadia amik borang add drop? "

"Haah.." I said while huffling my breath..

"Pi kat office.." I nodded and went to the office without taking glances at Faiz who was just standing across me..

"I went there and got the prize.. it was a mere present from vietnam., nothing fancy like last year~

I took it and went for the door..

I opened the door and let it open just to catch my breath.. Man i need to exercise frequently now~

I let go of the door and went walking back at Kak Sal..\

Just when we about to leave, we saw Wanie and Nadia.

We walk down together..

Then Faiz starts to talk about the movie that he watched, Snow White and The Huntsmen..
About how great it was..
bla bla bla..

He is such a talker now.. Blabbing all the time..

Then when on the stairs, he was right behind me..

In front of me was Kak sal's husband beside him is Kak sal, infront of them is their son, beside me is Wanie and behind was Nadia and Zana.. Then, zana says something that makes me weirded out too..

"Faiz, ko pegi tgk wayang x ajak aku~ Ak tgk gmbr memule ak ingt ko dgn AWEK ko~~"

Yup, she sorta stress out the Capital words..

"Ape zana? Awek aku? Awek aku??"

Did he have to repeat it twice? Geez..

"uih... Artis tu~" I decided to ignore n pretended tht i did not hear what they said..

Then, while waiting for Kush senpai, i saw that Faiz was poking his bag open and Kak sal looked at it as well.. I was suspicious but i look away as soon i saw his head moving..

 I did not look into his eyes nor his face..

Then we all went to Rafflesia to eat after Kush senpai arrived. Faiz dissapeared when we were at the STDN shop... lingering somewhere maybe??

Then, we all settle down. I was sitting across Gusha Senpai, beside me is Nadia, In front of her is Zana.
Then my phone rang
Faiz's caller ID ...

I pick up.

"Hello?"
"Ko katne? watpe?
"Makan ... Kat Rafflesia..." I heard some noises at the back~ like a pasar or somethibg~

"Hah?" He did not hear..

"Kush ad tak? ada kat situ tak?"

"Ada.. Kush ada kat sini..." I said it clearly

"Ah?? apa?" He said asif he was a deaf man or something//

"Kitorang kat Rafflesia, mkn.. Kush pun ada sekali, sayanng~ Datng ler sini kalo nk jmpe kush , syg oi~~"

Ah~ there goes my lovey doveycalling

"Ah..ah.. okay.. jap gi.. ak smpi..' He stuttered.. I smirked when i hang up the phone

Senpai was smirking at me when i said that Faiz just called.. hahahha..

Then, Solihin came with Faiz.. Solihin sat beside nadia and faiz sat beside zana.. Typical~

 i keep on talking so does others.. Talks about various stuffs.. Then we talk about movies on the cinema and stuff.. Solihin said something about college, i looked over to hear wht he is talking about.

I could notice from the corner of my eyes, he was looking at me.. But when Solihin finished talking i looked back atsenpai and we both laughed again~~about various stuffs...

WHen i was talking about movies and the t-shirt, once in a while my eyes would want to looka t him but everytime i wanna do it, i could feel like a piercing gaze from the corner of my eyes.. Little that I know, that piercing gaze was his..

I was pretended tht i ignore him when actually my heart told me to smil n looked at him~ But, i restrained my self to avoid looking like a bimbo or a desperate soul~

I think that's it...

This is part one of tiday's history.. More about me and him in the next post~~

See ya~~~~~~~~~~

Something Called Love? Really? Or is it?

Hey, all! Anneyong! Its me again!

I just wanna say that a lot have happen in my life these couple of week..
Did i tell you that i just got my President's list certificate from the college?

Duh! I did! hahaha... clueless me..

Anyway, it was a lot fun being there although we have to sit there and wait for the President to come..
After all it was worth it..
Why?
Well, aside from getting the certificate, i was spending time with two among most important people in my life right now..

The one i adore and the one i Love..

What did you ask?
Yeah~ it's the same guy from the last post..

U know...
the one i cry on and on when i let out my feelings for him..
Yeah.. I was so stupid... but really,, i really love him..

Speaking of him...
You know, i was so confused about how guys like him think..
Yeah.. He is not that responsive and whatnot..

I was not expecting a relationship if the time is not right but i want ur friendship..
and he did not give neither a yes o no..
so.. get the answer from someone the same gender as him..

Like people said, if u want the answer, u gotta ask the one in the same group..
So i ask my old schoolmate.. Lets just alias his name as Fred..

Well, i asked Fred and he said to tell him everything about it...
So i tell him about the time when we were close and always fighting like in the korean drama..
haha..
He laughed..

After all the babbaling for hours... he gave me an answer..

He said from a guy point of view..
He said he also felt the same way about me..
But he did not know how to express it..

Then when i have a boyfriend that time he was crushed by it and that's why he keep sending and posting sad songs on his FB.. Even his sister commented saying that he is heartbroken..

But when i broke up with him, he just like.. i dunno ignores me..
I was kinda sad... Because after i said my feelings to him, things did not stay the same again..

We weren't fighting and we were as awkward as ever..
Like a couple of strangers..
Like we just met..

I know.. Sad right?
I felt it..
Maybe he felt it too?
Or maybe not...
Hurm...

Then, Fred said that he is jealous and sulking because i couple with another guy..
And he was sorta have vengeance at me when i broke up with my ex..
As a payback for making him feel bad..
I am a nappeun yeoja tht time..

But Fred also said that...
He still like me for me.. He just dunno how to express it..
AND U KNOW HOW DELIGHTED I FEEL ?

Hahaha...  A WHOLE LOT!
I WAS HAPPY!
But then, i restrained myself not to hope too high...
Its all depends on Allah and his destiny...

After a long talk with Fred that night,,,
I woke up and my sister who was on the computer, called me..

I went at her ..

"Sis, you wanna see something?" She said.. I looked at her with droopy eyes...
"What?"
"I found something interesting.. and i think you gonna like it..." She grinned and looked back at the computer's screen..

I looked at her weirdly, What did she had that is so interesting in this time of a day?

She clicked and clicked.. Her facebook page clicked on a page..
I know that page very welll..

"Look... Look what was posted..." She scroll down the page and stopped at one post that attracted me alot..

It also gave me a slight surprise and a side order of curiosity...

The page was HIS and the post was a picture of him..

Holding up three piece of paper, one in his hand, one is under the first paper and the other one on his thigh.

He was sitting on a grass, at the place where we used to have a photoshoot...

The first paper was.. I Miss You, I.L.Y.S.M (I Love You So Much),Saranghaeyo. It was a yellow paper..

The second paper was, "Hi! I just wanna say that, I Love You! (heart sign) Thanks for everything) The paper was yellow...

The third one was, i love you so much.. But i.. afraid for Loving you..

(stunned)
I\Yeahh..
I was like that,,
Soem part of me say... hey, maybe he have someone he love or that is for someone he likes....
But part of me sorta ticks saying that might be for me?
I know.. Silly right?

A part of me want to feel happy but a part of me also restrained myself....
Aigoo...

But i know one thing!
I gotta ell Fitri about this@ and Ira!

fRIENDS!
I have something o tell u!

Anyhow, to conclude.. this week been great...
I love them all...! my family also!
Saranghae! *heartsign* ^-^

FrOM..: yOURS TRULY~

Hello! Ulzzang craze much?

Anneyong all!

How has it going on? I hope everything is fine! I am so happy!

A couple weeks ago, i googled up on the internet and i found one thing...

A word called Ulzzang!

Man, i am so hooked up on them coz they all look soo...

Cute! and flawless..

So i made an attempt to become an ulzzang!

I know i am a newbie.. and i am not that pretty or good in handling makeup, or making photoshops..

Well... i am trying!

So these a couple of photos of me... Ullzaang-ing!

haha... Don't hate me!

It's just an attempt!

This were all taken in my grandma's house! I know the background is not suitable and sorry if i am not fit to be an ulzzang, but i've tried.. I did not learn about the photoshop part yet, so believe it or not, these are the non photoshop pictures of mine.. I put on makeup but not photoshop...

Mission  to be an ulzzang-wannabe...

Success!

Comment, anyone?

Anyone all the ulzzang out ther, keep on being cute and flawless! Love you all!

From..

Yours truly..

I kissed a girl, I kissed a guy

Girl

This was never the way i planned

Not my intention

I got so brave playing dare

And i lost my descretion

This was not im used ti

Just wanna try you out

I'm curious for you

Got my attention

I kissed a guy i liked it

Taste off his brownie chopsticks

I kissed a guy just to try it

I know my girls wouldn't mind it

It felt so wow, it felt so right

Will i be in love tonight?

I kissed a guy,

I liked it, i liked it. .

Guy

No, i don't even know your name

It doesn't matter

You're so attractive to my eyes

Like human nature.

It's not what us guys do,

Fall

In love at the first sight

My heart get so confuse

Hard to obey. . . .

I kissed a girl

I liked it

Taste off her cherry chopsticks

I kissed a girl

Just to try it

I hope my boys don't mind it

It felt so wow, it felt so right

Will i fall in love starts tonight

I kissed a girl

I liked it

I liked it.

Girl

Us girl we are so magical

Soft skin, red lips so kissable

Guy

Us guys we are so likeable

Sly smile, six pax

So touchable. .

Guy and Girl

You cant de-deny it

No sin or badmouth feels inside. . .

Girl

I kissed a guy

I liked it

Taste off his brownie chopstick

Guy

I kissed a girl

I like it

taste off her cherry chopstick

Guy and girl

It felt so wow,

It felt so right

We'll be so in love tonight

We kissed tonight

We liked it

Oh~ we like it. . . .

Edited by : Hannah Farhana

Edited from : I kissed a girl by Katy Pery

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The Brick wall begins to break..

Hey, you all!

Its me.. I have not been updating, am i?
I know..
I shouldn't have a blog if i don't update often..
haha..

Anyway, updated news..
Nothing is new..
Only that i did something that i never thought i will do..
It changed my life fully..

What is it?
I tell someone i like, i like him..
O_O

Don't look at me like that...!
I did it, trust me..

What did i tell him?

Well,  i told him that i like him and i want this feeling to let out so i can continue my examination..
I tell him  that the brick wall that i built to prevent the feeling for floating out and making it uncomfortable for him.
I don't want our friendship to be taken away by someone else..
I love him..
and usually when someone like someone else when they were studying, they will get distracted..
But not me..
Loving him makes me more motivated to study hard..
How?

Whenever i did my quiz, i will timed the quiz so that i could finish quickly and get the answer right..
COz i knew..
He will  finished earlier and get all right..


What he replied?
Well.............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

Let's just say...
Urm..

Well.. he said..
First he said
"Finish what you wanna say?" I was stunned..
"Okay now listen to what i wanna say.." I looked at the wall and he looked at me by the sides..

The first word that came out from his mouth really.. really pissed me off..

"Why do you burden yourself to cry for me?"
"Why do you need to think about someone else..?"
"I don't wanna you to burden yourself with all these feelings.."
"Look at me.. i ignore all these feelings.. Friends are easy to find.. True friends are hard to find.."

I just smiled when he said those word..
But on the inside, the anger changed to sadness..
Heartbreak.. Like i felt before...

After that he said a few things but i did not quite remember what he said..
Cause seriously..
I have a feeling breakdown when he said those earlier words..

the things that i remember is..
"You must remember the purpose you came here... To learn... Remember what your  late mother said.."

Dude! when he speak of my late mother.. i looked seriously at him..
How did he  remember that?
Just like i remember that he hates coffee?

Right then, my anger and sadness lessen a bit..
Knowing that he care...
The last thing (well, not last thing coz we talked a bit later)he said
"If that is what you REALLY WANT, if the destiny is right..
You will get what you want.."

Honestly.. Those words light up my face and heart..
I dunno whether is just a advice or his feelings or just a friend advice...
I just dunno now...

I could feel that the brick wall i built slowly melt..
No~
I need to be strong...
"If that what you want.. You WILL BE WILLING TO WAIT.."

He said that..
I remember every single word that he said..
Now matter how hard i tried to not remember it...
I can't...
It just plastered in my brain. waiting in line to be registered in my brain..

I know..
i am being emotional..

I don't think that i would have feel this again..
But..
I did...
Only. its hurts more..
Coz he was my friend...
I thought i was heartless..Brutal and easy going..

But.. I feel different with him..
I can be myself... No hiding all the bad habits..
That is why i like him..
He accept me for who i am..

But i am soooooooooooo Stupid!
I wit someone else..
When i with someone else, He posted sad songs on his profile..
Songs like Rihanna, Final Goodbye..

Rihanna, Cry,

and lots more...

SOmehow, i felt that my heart was ripped apart..
Seeing he is sad and i could not be there to comfort..

Why don't i always get what i want?!
Why do i have to be hurt when i follow my instincts?
In other things, everything tht i did according to my instincts works..
Except this...

Why!

Today! He was chatting with one of my friends

They were close..
Just like how close i am..
With him last sem..
Eveything he will call her..
And she will be there..

Like us..
used to..
ah~ i shouldn't be like this..

I need to focus on my studies...
I will wait, if he want me to wait,,

Allah...
Give me strength..
The same one i have before..
I need more strength to go through this..
Thanks Allah!

Sorry for the long blabbing and what not..
I just need something to let out my feelings..

I already tell him what i had inside me..
But he did not see it all yet,...

Oh.. i wish someday he will...
Understand..
I wish once..
Let my life be come true like how i wanted...

Anneyong~
See you another time..